Tuesday, September 27, 2016

My Journey to South Korea - Thousand Miles Away


Hi, I am Margaret. By writing this blog post, I am sharing my current condition online. A lot of people including my closest ones and even people who don't know me can see my blog post. Well, deep inside I am such an emotional person. I never show much emotion outside because I am feeling afraid of what people might think of me even I already said multiple times, "I don't care what other people say." Sometimes, I do care. I still care what other might say or think about me. That's why, I am choosing to write things on my blog because I don't clearly express it from the outside.

I just want to know my paths. Maybe, I will laugh and smile one day when I read this blog post again with my future husband (or kids hahaha).


Several times, I mentioned about my bullying experience in my high school. It was horrible and gladly my life now is definitely way better than my life when I was in high school. In high school, so many people cheated on me (including my best friend and my ex-boyfriend). He broke up with me and went on a date with another girl that used to be his best friend. The worst thing was that girl lied about her illness to get my ex-boyfriend's attention. Drama huh? She is not even dead yet.

I never told my parents about my past relationship because it's still not something necessary to do. I am not getting married yet. 

Three years ago, I did try to open a new chapter. Finally,... I went to uni life. I discovered so many things. From the happiest to saddest parts came into my life. I know that life is not going to be smooth all the time. Including now.

Back in 2014, I met another guy. Just call him "S". I knew him from one of my best friend. My best friend now is a well known book author and writer. Okay, comeback to the main topic. He is not Indonesian, he is Korean. Yes, I met this guy one year after my last relationship. I met him in a cafe in West Jakarta area, not really far from my home. At that time, I was wearing white top, skinny jeans, and high heels. He was just wearing casual t-shirt and pants. Nothing flattering or such as. But he has a cute smile.

"S" is so nice to me and full of manner. He was never complaining about small things. I never feel uncomfortable around him and I always feel comfortable about myself. Is that amazing? I don't need to feel worry about being too skinny, wear to much makeup, or eat too much in front of him. I can do whatever I want to do (of course by using my common sense). Honestly, he knows how to treat woman in a right way. On that point, I realized ....maybe,... I fell for him. 

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He stayed in Jakarta for one month. Until one day, he said that he was also falling for me. He brought a doll with him and said that in front of public. A bit cheezy but hey, it's sweet. That was my first experience. He's a man, a real man. He's so brave by did that thing only for me. I was feeling unsure because I knew that he was going to go back to his country. But he said, "why don't we try it first?"

and... ended up I said, "yes." 


I agreed to be in a relationship again. Is it a trap?



We went on a date and we continue to met several times. We watched movies together, had amazing lunch and dinner together. We also tried to ride Bajaj and it was too funny. I paid him a cup of Baskin Robbins ice cream in Pacific Place. Everything was wonderful. That was my first time, I felt that someone wanted me to be beside him all the time. 

You know... I failed in my past relationships. I was feeling depressed and sad at the same time. That's why his existence was being my happiness.





Until, it's about time we did need to say goodbye and welcoming Long Distance Relationship.

We did skype almost every week. Another challenge was coming in front of us that he wanted to go to Europe. I couldn't stop him from reaching his own dreams and built experiences. He went to Germany and probably tried to get a job there.

We were okay for 8 months of our relationship and after that we already hard contacted each other because time differences. Plus, I was busy with my work (even until now, I am still working part time and studying in uni) and he was also getting busy with his start up company with his friends. When I was about to sleep, he's probably still outside.

I really wanted to go to Germany, because he also asked for it... but I didn't have much money. My parents do have money but I couldn't ask for my parents' money for my own sake. 



Until next month... finally, he said that sentence... "I think, we need to break up. I don't want you to feel this way. I want you to be free because it seems I am holding you too tight. You can go and date another guy in Indonesia if you want. I am so sorry but it's better for us."


I said, "why?" but ended up I tried to understand the condition.


We broke up. I felt so weird. and it's sad that I am getting used to feel this way.


I continued my life like usual and decided to plan craziest thing in my life. I bought tickets to South Korea and luckily my friend, Dara helped me about the payment and everything. Luckily again that my other friends also wanted to go to South Korea for traveling. 

I worked 3 times harder. I was saving up my money. I did study harder to reach my goals. I did so many great things for the past 2 years. Collaborating with designers, participate as a guest on talkshow or seminar, and many more.


From 2014 and now it's 2016, 2 years passed. We didn't say hi and lost contact for 2 years. Until one day, I was working on my position paper for Model United Nations and I decided to open my facebook. I tried to check "S" status and position. Surprisingly, he already came back to South Korea too. I tried to contact him trough facebook chat and said that I am going to meet him this September. 





He replied.





I couldn't handle my tears. In fact that he actually replied my message and agreed to meet me again in Seoul in September 2016.


after 2 years not contacting each other.... Finally, I heard something again from him.


-Me and my friends went to South Korea-


7th September 2016, I met him in Seoul. I saw his face for the first time after 2 years we were lost contact. He was still looking the same with his funny behavior and smiley face.

My friends dropped me at the EXIT 10 Jonggak station. I ran to him and hugged him tightly. Surprisingly, he also opened his hands for me.

We both were so nervous.

After that, my friends went to other place and we both went to grab some chimaek or Chicken Maekju (Maekju means beer in Korean). We talked a lot and realized that he was trying hard to survive in Europe. I know that "S" is a nice man. We broke up because we were busy and still young for reaching our own dreams. He never lied to me about things that he always did..

He did compliment me. He said, "You look good today. Your jacket is so nice, where did you get it?"

Oh cheesy, but admit that girls... deep down in our heart ... we do like it.

I said, "I bought it 2 days ago in COEX Mall because GDragon wore it in a commercial."

and then he laughed.

I miss his laugh tho.

He said, "You are stupid. GD only wore that for a commercial. But you look good in that. You look like a girl version of GD."

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After that, we went on a walk and decided to chill under the bridge at Cheonggyecheon (청계천) area. We talked until 1AM there. It was such a beautiful memory. I could stay with him for one night and talked about so many things. He even talked about his feeling for me and he remembered every details about me when the first time we met in that cafe in Jakarta.


I honestly didn't want to sleep and wake up in the next morning to say goodbye again for the second time. Maybe this is answering his question when he asked "why are you not sleeping yet?" at that night.



We are not deciding anything serious and we are not coming back together (yet). I don't know where this feeling is going to go too. We are still young and reaching our own dreams. But love is still love. No matter how it's going to be ended, he was my best boyfriend ever.

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For "S"

Everything was precious with you. Thanks for making me comfortable to be around you and also with myself. I am definitely going to comeback to South Korea, but I don't know how the future will welcome us. Maybe you already find someone who is better than me or vice versa. Well, we both don't know. 

Also, your english is way better now, congrats for that! Actually, my korean improved a lot. I was just too shy and enjoying your voice in English better. That's why I refused to talk with you in Korean. But I stayed there in Seoul with my friends. They are all non korean speakers, that's why I did talk in Korean all the time during my stay in Seoul. No need to be worry! I studied Korean language because you always motivated me.

I am going to graduate next year. I hope, you are also going well in your study and your start up company. I will see you way more successful in the future. I just hope that one day, that massive wall between us will disappear.


사랑해,
from me who live thousand miles away from you.

Beauty Review : Beauty Buffet Macaron Eyeshadow






Hello everyone! I am back making a new content. I know that lately my blog is getting boring due to my lack posting schedule. Now, I am busy finishing my final year in uni. I hope that my blog readers understand that. Living inside and working on the internet is kinda funny seriously. 

Okay comeback with the actual review. So last month, I stayed in Thailand. I was doing voluntary work in Thailand for 2 months. I did shopping several beauty products too. People are talking about this Thai beauty brand a lot, named Beauty Buffet. Beauty Buffet offers us nice deal makeup and beauty products (including body care and skin care products).

I bought a big bottle of body lotion for my mom, a single BB Cream for body (pretty interesting, i will review it later on), and four cute  Macaron eyeshadows. I got those for myself in 4 bright colors : No.4 peach, No.6 raspberry, No.7 mango and No.10 earl grey.

Positive Points :
  • The packaging is legit. So creative and cute at the same time. Your makeup drawer will look amazing and it's a perfect gift for your friend.
  • Pigmentation is quite good. The color is definitely there!
  • Blend-able (if this even a word? lol)
  • Even tho those colors are so bright and vibrant, those can work on our eyelids (remembering that this is a blend-able eyeshadow).
  • Finishing of this eyeshadow : can be natural / can be a pop up color on your eyelid.
  • Affordable : 165 Baht (Rp 63.000,-)
  • Macaron eyeshadow series come with 15 different colors.
  • For more information about this eyeshadow : click here!
Negative Points :
  • If you are not getting into bright or asian makeup style, maybe this eyeshadow is not being your cup of tea.
  • It's pretty hard to get products from this brand outside Thailand, the solution is buying the products online.
  • If you are living in Indonesia, you can get Beauty Buffet products from a store called COPIA (a sister company of The Faceshop Indonesia and OPI Indonesia). Sadly is 2 times more expensive than the actual price and the collection is not as complete as in Thailand. There are several COPIA offline stores too, click here to know!
I hope that this information can help you to access products from this amazing brand from Thailand. This is not a sponsored post by any company that I mentioned above. This is my honest review about Beauty Buffet.


xoxo,
Margaret

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Thursday, September 15, 2016

Random : Perhatikan Hal Ini Saat Memilih Blu Ray DVD Player


(image credit : google)

Di zaman yang semakin berkembang ini, tentunya kalian tahu tentang Blu Ray DVD Player. Bagi masyarakat Indonesia, salah satu produk yang terkenal ini sudah lama hadir dan dimiliki oleh setiap rumah untuk menonton DVD. Blu Ray ini tidak hanya berfungsi sebagai hiburan, namun juga sebagai alat elektronik yang memiliki mulai banyak kegunaan. Kegunaannya seperti menonton kaset DVD, karaoke, dan kegunaan lainnya. Maka dari itu dalam memilih merek Blu Ray Player terbaik, ada beberapa fitur yang ditemui dari berbagai merek Blu Ray ini. Ada 8 macam fitur utama yang harus diperhatikan saat memilih Blu Ray:

1. Track dan subtitles untuk bahasa

2. Multiangle viewing untuk pengaturan tampilan

3. Multichannel audio digital untuk jenis file video yang berbeda

4. Rasio control untuk mengubah ukuran layar

5. Fast dan Slow Playback untuk mempercepat video

6. Kemampuan pemutar kaset CD

7. Compatible speaker dengan Dolby Pro

8. On screen menu untuk tampilan berbagai menu Blu Ray



Delapan fitur utama di atas bisa dijadikan pedoman saat membeli Blu Ray DVD Player berkualitas dan tahan lama. Namun nanti dulu, selain fitur utama di atas terdapat juga fitur optional atau pilihan dalam Blu Ray, berikut informasinya:

1. Compatible dengan DTS, dengan fitur ini memungkinkan Blu Ray untuk menjalankan sebuah player dengan sistem DTS audio. Bisa terlihat simbol DTS yang terhubung otomatis dengan pemutar.

2. Compatible dengan CD, karena DVD Blu Ray memiliki keunggulan lebih banyak dibandingkan VCD, maka harusnya bisa memutar VCD. Namun harus diperhatikan dengan teliti karena tidak semua DVD bisa menjalankan VCD.

3.  Compatible dengan jenis DVD, untuk jenis DVD sebenarnya banyak sekali yang beredar sekarang ini. Mulai dari DVDRW, jenis DVDRW, dan lainnya. Maka harus dipastikan simbol-simbol mulai dari +RW, -RW, +R, dan –R pada pemutar Blu Ray.

4. Fitur Multibahasa, umumnya fitur ini sudah disediakan oleh pemutar DVD. Namun untuk memastikan anda mendapatkan Blu Ray Player yang tepat, tidak ada salahnya memeriksa bahasa yang ada. Hal ini dilakukan agar bahasa yang diinginkan oleh anda terdapat pada pemutar Blu Ray player yang dibeli.


Semoga informasi yang aku dapatkan ini bisa bermanfaat bagi kalian semua ya! Apa lagi bagi kalian yang suka banget nonton dvd seperti aku di rumah. Good luck!

Friday, August 26, 2016

Styling Adidas Socks









Black One Piece - myrubylicious, Baseball Cap - Bangkok Night Market, Velvet Backpack, Socks and Shoes - Adidas Originals

I am back to Jakarta after almost 2 months journey in Thailand. I met my friend Lisa at Central Park mall and took some ootd pictures. I didn't upload any ootd pictures for so long. I miss blogging about fashion. Lately, I always fall to many places aka not being focus to my own job as fashion and lifestyle blogger.

Back to the main topic,... I just bought a new pair of Adidas socks. I got 3 pairs at Adidas Originals Store in Lippo Mall Puri in West Jakarta. I went there with my two close guy friends. I was so random and I really wanted those socks for so long. Adidas basic stuffs are coming on trend again, I don't know why. This is how I style my Adidas Socks, how about you? I do recommend to pair it with monochrome outfit or statement outfit.


xoxo,
Margaret

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Friday, July 29, 2016

My Journey to Thailand - Ban Ta-ud School & National Thai Language Day











Today, it's a National Thai Language Day. Me and my friends already bought Thai traditional dress. Do we look great in Thai dress? (By the way, Indonesian Batik and Thai fabric are looking almost the same.) It is such a beautiful experience. This is my first time ever to experiencing National Thai Language day. Especially, I am working as an English teacher in this school. Every student says, "Teacher, you look really good (in Thai dress)!" in Thai would be, "Koon Kru, suay mak mak!"

I love how every student here showing love for us. They express their emotions really well. I get so many love letters and affection from the students. I am going to miss everyone here in this school because I am going to go back again to Bangkok (probably) in 2 weeks. I am going to miss my mother here and her 2 amazing daughters. I am going to miss my junior high school and high school students. You guys are amazing and always be in my heart forever. I love you guys!

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Monday, July 18, 2016

My Journey to Thailand - Temple in Sisaket Province
















Taken with Samsung Galaxy J7

Last week, on Sunday... Me, my friends, one of my student, and my host family went to a temple in Sisaket. It was my first time ever and the place was wonderful. The building is so big. This temple consist of museum and place for pray to Buddha or God. This temple is not too tall comparing to other temple in other bigger cities. It has only 4 floors. The view from 4th floor is going to amazed you. Green and peaceful place. You can come to this temple if you visit Sisaket province and ask to local people about it. They surely will help you to reach the destination.

I got my fortune prediction and it was a nice one! You need to try to see your own fortune. If you are not believing in any kind of fortune teller or prediction like me, well just do it for fun and make the fortune prediction to be your inspiration and try to be a better person in your life. Because YOLO. 

This temple is quite clean but the public bathroom / toilet is not that clean. It was so dusty and there was no clean water. Make sure you bring tissue or wet tissue with you
, just in case you want to pee. If you are a girl and still in your period please make sure you clean it. Do not ever place a blood mark in any kind of temple here.

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There are several tourist attractions here in Sisaket. Not as many as other cities but yet, Sisaket is one of my favorite province in Thailand. The other recommended destination is Sisaket Aquarium. You can also visit downtown in Khukhan district. I live in Ta-Ud area in Sisaket, it is a small area. Not many things happen here in my neighborhood. So me and my host family are often going to Khukhan or other areas in Sisaket province.

I feel bad that I forget the name of this temple. But if you visit here, just make sure you say "I want to go to a temple and museum in Sisaket." and the locals would automatically know it (or probably you show my captured photos to them). There is a temple near my home but it's just a small one and nothing really interesting with it. I mean, it doesn't bad either but it's just a holy place for people who want to pray / not a tourist attraction / not a tourist destination. No need to pay if you want to visit local temples here. They will welcome all people who want to visit.


Now, do you want to try to visit this province?

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